Whether it's lifting at the gym.
Or getting in my daily steps.
Or working on the farm.
I'm on an odyssey of self-discovery without a guide. What I am going to learn about my aging self is not going to come from a book or the words of a therapist but from my own feet. I am learning that I can be defeated but not beaten. I am learning to admire others for being faster or leaner or stronger than me without allowing myself to believe that they are better than me. I am learning that success is measured not by what I accomplish but by how hard I work to get out the door every day.
This feeling is out there for everyone. It's out there for you. You can't predict it. You can't force it. But you will know it when you feel it. It's called being fully alive. It's called experiencing the best and the worst that I am and accepting them equally.
So if you see me at the gym with a huge smile on my face or out on the trail happily plodding along, don't expect the smile to ever come off my face.